Intellectually I know I am having my head shaved in 4 days. That’s what you do; you have your head shaved right before your hair is going to fall out (which magically occurs on day 18 of the chemo). I know it will take about 6 months from my last treatment to grow back to anything more than fuzz. I know I will be a bald woman with hats and scarves on for the better part of 2009. As a result of this, I intellectually know it does not make sense to highlight my hair this month, get a stylish haircut this week or spend any money on deep conditioning products. And yet, there are all these things I do out of habit:
· I go to J. Crew and I buy the cute preppy headbands on the sale table just before the register
· I go to CVS and can’t resist buying my favorite no frizz hair serums
· I pass the aisle with the scrunchies/clips in the Walgreen’s and when I see my favorite hard to find barrettes (the only ones that can hold my thick frizzy hair), I throw 2 packages in my cart.
· We stay at a hotel and I take the complimentary shower cap and tuck it away in my toiletry case (as though there are going to be any mornings in the next year where my hair looks so darn good that I wouldn’t want to ruin it by washing it????????????)
Maybe after 46 years of having hair, it’s not quite to easy to transition to a chapter in my life NOT having hair …………..
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