• 17May

    I ran into someone the other week who I hadn’t seen since last summer. She had no idea I’d been through this whole breast cancer thing over the last 8 months. She saw my little just growing back crew cut sticking out from under my baseball cap, and she said, “wow; what a radical hair style; you really chopped it all off!” I thought to myself:
    – Hair chopped off? NO. Do you think I would CHOOSE this hairstyle?????
    – Breasts chopped off? YES.
    – Ovaries chopped off? SOON.

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  • 09May

    Talk about poking me in the eye…. As though it’s not disturbing enough that I’ve recently realized that all my magazines (In Style, Self, US) are obsessed with hair, I received a magazine in the mail yesterday TOTALLY DEVOTED to hair. Who knew that there was an “In Style HAIR” magazine? Did anyone else get this or was it just a Candid Camera moment for me???????????????

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  • 25Apr

    lime-martini(look closely at the background of this web site before you read this blog and remember that the reason I chose the background was because I love lime and I like it most in an incredibly dry vodka martini)

    Due to the acid reflux I developed from the chemo and the inability to drink hard liquor while on Coumadin, I can have neither limes nor vodka. If the breast cancer doesn’t get you down, the lack of martinis certainly will…………….

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  • 18Apr

    Pre chemo, I was like the octo-mom. She has lots of kids — so no time to give each one any special attention. I used to have lots of eyelashes … too many to count, so I had to quickly swipe the mascara wand across the whole “family of lashes”. Now 4 months into chemo, I’m down to 3 — 4 eye lashes. Now… I’m like a mom of a first born (single) baby. I carefully take the mascara and lovingly place it on each individual eye lash, as though I were Monet painting a prized impressionist painting.

    How will I ever go back to juggling the demands of work, family, exercise and a full complement of eye lashes??????????????
    mascara-on-eyelashes

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  • 11Apr

    four months into my chemo regime (bald as a new born baby!), I was hospitalized unexpectedly for a blood clot. I normally get such a kick out of the little sundries they leave for you in the hospital — it’s not quite the Ritz, but they try to leave you the necessities you left at home like hand lotion, toothbrush, toothpaste, etc. This visit I felt like I was on Candid Camera when the only thing in my little plastic bin was a COMB!

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  • 04Apr

    Just sat down to pack for an upcoming trip. WOW! my suitcase sure is light. Imagine how light your suitcase would be if you took out shampoo, cream rinse, brush, comb, gel, anti frizz cream, mascara, shaving cream, mousse, and hair dryer.

    of course by the time I load it up with Nexium, B6, Zinc, Coumadin, Lovenox, Magic Mouthwash, Orajel, and Neosporin, I might be weighted down again……………..
    suitcase

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  • 29Mar

    in-style-magazineEver the optimist, I’ve found another bright spot about going through chemo — I’ve gained so much time back. One example: I sat down yesterday to read “In Style” magazine. this is usually a 45 — 90 minute activity, as I read through all the articles on shampoo, conditioner, hair gel, hair brushes, hair mousse, hair color, blow dryers, curling irons, flat irons, hair spray, and “how to make your hair curly, straight, bobbed, sexy, short, long, tussled or professional”. In addition to complete disinterest in all things related to hair, I’m not buying any new clothes this season (combination of the fact that all our money went to the plastic surgeon and that I have no clue what I’ll look like when I’m done with this plastic surgery journey).

    I made it through the magazine in 12 minutes. very efficient ………… although I’m not going to think about the cost per minute of reading my once favorite magazine……………….

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  • 21Mar

    woman-relaxing1You know you’re working too much when Friday mornings at chemo become your treasured break of the week. Someone asked me if I dread going to chemo and sadly, I admitted that it’s my most restful time of the week: no meetings, no conference calls and no laundry!

    Thanks to the miracle of wireless technology, I catch up on the hundreds of emails I didn’t get to read all week at work. I watched the entire second season of Mad Men on my lap top. I read the funny things my friends have said on Face book while drinking endless cups of hot tea and while munching on a tote bag full of granola bars and M&M’s. It’s no canyon ranch, but it’s much better than I had imagined….

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  • 14Mar

    A friend of mine at work stopped me in the hall last week and said (in a loud voice) that I looked like I’d gained weight. For the first time in my adult life, I said, “thank you” and I actually meant it.

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  • 07Mar

    After you have surgery, driving is very difficult. You have very limited use of your arms, and it’s nearly impossible to back up because you can’t turn your body sideways and lift your arm up over the passenger’s seat to see what’s behind you. Lots of wheel turning is also difficult because you’re weak. Two weeks after surgery, I had mastered the art of driving forward. Grocery stores were easy because they have “pull through” spaces. I could also master the kinds of parking lots with lots of room where you could back out straight, looking only in your rear view mirror (I know; that’s against what they taught us in driver’s education!!!).

    Just as you’re starting to heal from surgery, you start going back to the plastic surgeon to have tissue expanders expanded and you get back to a post surgical tightness and soreness for a few days. You’re also there “every 5 minutes” for issues with your drains, your scars and your constant pain.   Here’s the irony:  crowded-parking-lotthe plastic surgeon (who has the most beautiful doctor’s office I’ve ever seen, complete with office manager concierge in a channel suit!) has the smallest parking lot with spaces to tight only a golf cart could fit. A little ironic, isn’t it??

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